Loving in Proximity

Loving in proximity

is not a strength of mine.

It is only in distance

that love can blossom

within my heart

in ways I could never

feel before.

I don't feel worthy

to mourn the loss

of those once before me.

For it's my own fault

they turned away

and left.

I want to grow.

To learn

to love close.

But I fear

I'll only discover

the depth of my love

after they've

turned their backs.